ooc: from everywhere, by now

[heroslayer]

Comment here to find out what Sylar really thinks of your character. The truth, I mean, not just what he'd tell you, and not just what he thinks he thinks.

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Corruptionverse.

[heroslayer]

Tell the truth? He's slightly terrified of Mohinder, at the moment.

What's happening to Mohinder is everything he's ever wanted. He's just as crazy as he is. He's clearly unafraid of acting on the tension that he's felt between them since they first met. He looks at Sylar like he's a god. He's still retained his intelligence, his sharpness. He's ruthless. It's wonderful and he should be happy, but at the same time.

He's been a victim of madness, yes, and in his opinion it's made him stronger, but he's never seen someone go through it. He's never been there to witness insanity from the outside. Everyone he's ever met, has been unchangeably good, no hints of ever breaking or changing their point of view. So, he's so afraid that Mohinder might end up broken beyond repair. That he'll just keep spiraling downwards until there's nothing left of the man that fascinated him so much. That, in the end, their dynamic will be shattered, that they won't be Sylar and Mohinder anymore. That they'll be Sylar and ... who the hell are you again? And he doesn't know how to be, "Dude. Cut the crazy for a bit," or if he even should, or if it would help. It's why he's had a few, idle thoughts about just killing Mohinder - because that would ensure that Mohinder remains as he remembers him, albeit just out of reach, forever.

Even beyond that, though, he knows what addiction to power is like, and while Mohinder is just getting his feet wet at the moment, he knows. He knows it's not something you can quiet, that lust for power. That it's like a snowball. You get a taste for it, and you want more and more until you're gorging yourself. And he's kind of afraid that Mohinder will get to the point where the want for more is greater than the want to prove himself to him, and they'll end up at odds again. Only it'll be honest WE FITE NAO rather than the sort of cat and mouse game they've always enjoyed in the past, and he really doesn't want to kill the guy. As much as he's thought about it.

It's funny, though. He can't say why he doesn't really want to hurt or lose Mohinder, just yet. He recognizes that it's something more real than not wanting to see his toys broken, particularly one so new, but ... well. It's not so much love yet as obsession. But every time Suresh hurts someone, even if there's that spark of fear of losing him to his insanity, it brings him closer to love. Closer to thinking of them as true equals. Closer to not!Spike/Dru.