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1. Tenth grade. Lisa Davies. I was a good Catholic boy, and well, impure thoughts and all that. Take a stab in the dark as to how many Hail Marys Father Cook made me do, after that--or how many he would have made me do, if I'd said a damn word about it.
2. The first time I used my telekinesis. Yes, I felt guilty afterward, when it hit me what I'd done, but before that? It felt so damn good.
3. Any of the times I met with Elle, before she brought Trevor to me. I say that I shouldn't have been aroused for two reasons, though. One, the bitch was just using me to get what she wanted--or what Angela and Bennet wanted--and yeah, hindsight is twenty-twenty and I'm aware that it wasn't really her fault as she was just following orders, but still. And two, at the time I was still a meek, little watchmaker, and thinking about women that way wasn't like me.
4. Before having my spinal fluid drawn by force. Not the most enjoyable experience of my life, but the guy doing it put his mouth to my ear and told me it was going to hurt beforehand. Subtext much, Suresh?
5. We're going to do one backwards, just because I feel it's worth mentioning. One time I wasn't aroused when I should have been, and that award goes to Michelle--Candice--whatever. She thought making me see a geisha or a pair of blonde twins or myself would turn me on? Hate to break it to her, but I hate all things Japanese, as well as things that remind me of certain cheerleaders, and I'm not that narcissistic.
6. Any time I was with Maya before I slept with her. I put it like that because actually kissing her, sleeping with her, turned out to be something of a chore--she was horrible in bed, and when a virgin can say that, you know it's pretty bad--but before that? She had a nice body, not to mention the fact that she and her brother technically saved my life, and I should have been more focused on getting my abilities back. Maybe if I had been, I wouldn't have had to screw her in the first place.
7. There's something intimate about having your fingers on someone's brain and them living through it. I'm pretty sure she's still jail bait, though--I may be a lot of things but I'm not a pedophile--and having a knife through your chest sort of puts a damper on things.
8. Being fried by Elle--at Pinehearst, not at Suresh's lab. Oh, I'm not saying it didn't hurt, but ever since taking Claire's ability, there's something wonderful about pain. Maybe because it's a high, knowing I'll survive no matter what they try and do to me. Or maybe the fact that I was turned on had nothing to do with pain--I ended up shirtless and I had a thing for Elle at one point. You do the math. I say I shouldn't have been turned on, though, because she killed me. Repeatedly.
9. When I gave Meredith the shot of adrenaline. There's just something attractive about seeing other people lose control, particularly when it's more or less guaranteed that they'll kill themselves or the people they care about, in the process. And the way she looked at me, afterward? Priceless. I probably should have been focusing more on the task at hand, but what can I say? I'm still human, despite arguments to the contrary.
10. Torturing Agent Simmons. Torture in general is usual pretty erotic on it's own, but there was just something about that instance that I can't put my finger on. Maybe because it was the first time I'd done anything like that in such a long time, and unlike Mendez, Simmons made all kinds of wonderful little noises. I bet if the Campbells hadn't come home, he even would have begged me to kill him.
Muse: Gabriel Gray (Sylar)
Fandom: Heroes
Word Count: 656
2. The first time I used my telekinesis. Yes, I felt guilty afterward, when it hit me what I'd done, but before that? It felt so damn good.
3. Any of the times I met with Elle, before she brought Trevor to me. I say that I shouldn't have been aroused for two reasons, though. One, the bitch was just using me to get what she wanted--or what Angela and Bennet wanted--and yeah, hindsight is twenty-twenty and I'm aware that it wasn't really her fault as she was just following orders, but still. And two, at the time I was still a meek, little watchmaker, and thinking about women that way wasn't like me.
4. Before having my spinal fluid drawn by force. Not the most enjoyable experience of my life, but the guy doing it put his mouth to my ear and told me it was going to hurt beforehand. Subtext much, Suresh?
5. We're going to do one backwards, just because I feel it's worth mentioning. One time I wasn't aroused when I should have been, and that award goes to Michelle--Candice--whatever. She thought making me see a geisha or a pair of blonde twins or myself would turn me on? Hate to break it to her, but I hate all things Japanese, as well as things that remind me of certain cheerleaders, and I'm not that narcissistic.
6. Any time I was with Maya before I slept with her. I put it like that because actually kissing her, sleeping with her, turned out to be something of a chore--she was horrible in bed, and when a virgin can say that, you know it's pretty bad--but before that? She had a nice body, not to mention the fact that she and her brother technically saved my life, and I should have been more focused on getting my abilities back. Maybe if I had been, I wouldn't have had to screw her in the first place.
7. There's something intimate about having your fingers on someone's brain and them living through it. I'm pretty sure she's still jail bait, though--I may be a lot of things but I'm not a pedophile--and having a knife through your chest sort of puts a damper on things.
8. Being fried by Elle--at Pinehearst, not at Suresh's lab. Oh, I'm not saying it didn't hurt, but ever since taking Claire's ability, there's something wonderful about pain. Maybe because it's a high, knowing I'll survive no matter what they try and do to me. Or maybe the fact that I was turned on had nothing to do with pain--I ended up shirtless and I had a thing for Elle at one point. You do the math. I say I shouldn't have been turned on, though, because she killed me. Repeatedly.
9. When I gave Meredith the shot of adrenaline. There's just something attractive about seeing other people lose control, particularly when it's more or less guaranteed that they'll kill themselves or the people they care about, in the process. And the way she looked at me, afterward? Priceless. I probably should have been focusing more on the task at hand, but what can I say? I'm still human, despite arguments to the contrary.
10. Torturing Agent Simmons. Torture in general is usual pretty erotic on it's own, but there was just something about that instance that I can't put my finger on. Maybe because it was the first time I'd done anything like that in such a long time, and unlike Mendez, Simmons made all kinds of wonderful little noises. I bet if the Campbells hadn't come home, he even would have begged me to kill him.
Muse: Gabriel Gray (Sylar)
Fandom: Heroes
Word Count: 656
